In 2011, I rescued Panda; it was unplanned but totally fait. Shortly after rescuing her from her entrapment, I was diagnosed with cervical cancer. Provinces away from family and completely overwhelmed, Panda ended up rescuing me. I survived, and continue to survive because of her love, but not hers alone. My first week of treatment was brutal and I lived alone and being truly stubborn, would be home as often as medically possible. Even when my medical team would encourage me to remain in the hospital. Within that first week Panda expressed to me she didn’t want to be anywhere else, with anyone else. Every trip to the bathroom to be sick, she was the soft pillow of love at the base of the toilet. Every time I was too weak to get up, she was the nose pushing me and the muscle moving me. Every time I cried, felt sorry for myself or got frustrated - she was the kiss that wiped away my tears. It’s a long sob story that carried on for three years. The treatment was harsh, and at times my body rejected it, forcing me to be away from my girl. (She always had a loving caretaker) I still believe I would have healed quicker if I was allowed to bring her with me into the hospitals and surgeries etc. But either way, she endured it all with me. Never leaving me to feel alone or unloved for one second.
In 2014, Panda and I rescued Rogue, a California Blue Nose, riddled with illnesses and needing an astronomical amount of medical attention, Panda and I welcomed the challenge. Together, we rescued and fell head over heels for our little hippo Rogue. Through out our journey, I have developed and battled with depression and anxiety, sometimes questioning if I was the best mom for my girls. They have shown me unwavering love and acceptance but even more than that, they have taught me the power of unconditional love. All three of us continue to save one another every day, sharing an unconditional bond and an undeniable need to love one another throughout whatever pain we may endure. My girls are the kids I cannot physically bare, the endless fountain of joy after a long day, my best friends and the best prescription for my mental health challenges. My angels.